Painting Applications #2, An Implied Narrative
Crazy Diamond
My excitement to create this piece as a narrative to a song turned to trepidation after I realized what I was doing. I feel very uneasy sharing this piece. It provides glimpses of my personal journey of growing up female in a male dominated world.
I have always been creative. Art and music was a large part of my life when I was a child. As I grew and realized responsibilities I postponed aspirations and dreams to work and help raise a family It is cliché but it is also true. I would not give up being a mother, I would not trade the experiences I have had for an earlier realization of my dreams. I am thankful for my journey and everything I have learned along the way.
The artwork is a is a four-foot circle cut into three puzzle shaped pieces. The puzzle pieces represent the complexities of life, how we try to make sense of things as we go along tying to make it all fit together. The struggles of being self, mental anguish of loss, sacrifice of and the joy of loving are in this piece.
In this paining is the profound sense of loss I felt for the majority of my adult life. Remorse for turning away form art and music. The woman on the left falls away into the dark abyss as she drowns in anxiety fueled from societal and family expectations. The face on the right creams in a frustration all around her injurious substances meant to ease the pain of a patriarchal system of bullying. Above it all she floats away into the warmth of letting go.
Crazy Diamond. 2022 Mixed Media on paper and cardboard 48″ diameter